go deeper

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Time gives an opportunity

Reveals my deepest wounds and needs

Oh my redacted memories

Tucked in my body

Tried to outrun them, moving fast

Those buried treasures from my past

Dying in the shadow cast

As my spirit asks [me to]

Go deeper…

So tired of doing what I’ve done

My cynical mind forgets the fun

I pushed away the only one

Who knows where I come from

[So I’ll] Go deeper…

An infant cries inside of a boy

That boy trembles deep inside a man

That man gets lost in

Busy-work and plans as time ticks

Yeah, time ticks

Go deeper…

an icy cold

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Seaweed ‘round my ankle

A corkscrewed tentacle

Dragging me ever deeper

And just when we got comfortable

Down to the sea floor I’ll go again

Pulled by the undertow

I’ll long to feel sunlight on my fingertips 

But I’ll just feel an icy cold

Off in the salty distance

I can see your pallid face

Both hands tied behind you

Some kind of inverted embrace

Down to the sea floor you’ll go again

Pulled by the undertow

You’ll long to feel sunlight on your fingertips

But you’ll just feel an icy cold

Here we go again

Though we’ve tried

Say that line again

And I’ll say mine

Two swimmers in the harbor 

No two happier could be

Strokes slice the cresting water

They move around with so much ease

Down to the sea floor they’ll go

Pulled by the undertow

They’ll long to feel sunlight on their fingertips

But they’ll just feel an icy cold

dusty sweetness

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Dusty sweetness, where’d you go?

Hidden places I don’t show?

Moody river, swollen tide

Overflowing on all sides

Wanna be better than I am now

A better man somehow

Wanna be better than I am now

I just can’t right now

Whiskey temptress making eyes

Now she comforts me most nights

Held forgiveness, heavy load

I can’t carry it no more

Wanna be better than I am now

A better man somehow

Wanna be better than I am now

I just can’t right now

When these old habits start to do themselves

I don’t enjoy them 

Any more far as I can tell

Where is that good little boy I used to be?

Wanna be better, better, better

A better man somehow

Wanna be better, better, better

I just can’t right now

Have I forgotten how?

Dusty sweetness, where’d you go?

inner shibori

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Started out clean white silk

spotless, folded and bound

Dipped in Japanese indigo

'til I felt like I’d drown

I absorbed all the darkness

I was forever transformed

Once I loosed what was binding me

Saw how I’d been adorned

All these blue and white lines of mine

Each one by design

Kaleidoscopic shadow and light

The inner shibori of time

Searched my life for the artisan

the one with blue-stained hands

The one to blame for my dark design

I’m starting to understand

All these blue and white lines of mine

Each one by design

Kaleidoscopic shadow and light

The inner shibori of time

Ink pours out, one generation to the next

Each one trying to outrun it

We all end up soaking wet

All these blue and white lines of mine

Perfect by design

Kaleidoscopic shadow and light

The inner shibori of time

slow accepting

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

I find myself alone, love

More than I ever thought I'd be

I say I'm doing alright, love

But how could I be?

You're there

And I'm here

Just me and the scaffolding

Guess I've been slow accepting

We thought we were different

More permanent, more true

Said we’d never do those things, love

Those other people do

You're there

And I'm here

Quietly bargaining

Guess I've been slow accepting

Slow accepting

Slow…

i’ll just keep tryin’

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

My love is imperfect, I know

But here I am

Rib by rib fanning open

Heart in hand

Glowing blue

Like the moon

Your love is patient, gentle, true

I’ll just keep tryin’

I’ll just keep tryin’

You chose tonight to show me

Who you are

Your luminous beauty here

In the dark

I’m on fire

I’m inspired

You’re the source of all I admire

I’ll just keep tryin’

I’ll just keep tryin’

My gratitude unfolds like old origami

A humble shaking before this great mystery

I want to hold on to this new serenity

Once the veil drops back again will I still know you?

I’ll just keep tryin’

I’ll just keep tryin’

I’ll just keep tryin’

I’ll just keep tryin’

Don’t let me go…

backyard thursday

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Scarlet cardinals on full display

Watch the baby bunny rabbit jump through the gate

Sit beneath the dogwood as it sways in my 

Backyard Thursday

All those years in New York looking out on concrete, glass, and steel

Never knowing just how good this change of pace would feel

Penny Campbell used to own this place

She planted gardens, filled up every green space

I can feel her good vibrations to this day in my 

Backyard Thursday

All those people she mentored who needed help and love

Did she know those fruits would come to bear long after she’d been called above

Oh my God, those things we leave behind

What we feel but cannot see

How beautiful, these gifts we bring

Invisible legacies

Some years from now I’ll be gone

Someone new will sit in this here lawn

Will they hear the echoes of my song in their

Backyard Thursday

fetch the water

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

But, there’s no water

There is no water

There’s no water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

But, there’s no water

There is no water

There’s no water

I’m so thirsty

I’m so thirsty

I’m so angry

This well’s gone dry

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, fetch the water

Send the bucket down, but there’s no water

There is no water

There’s still no water

There is no water

I’m so thirsty

I’m so thirsty

I’m so lonely

This well’s gone dry

This well’s gone dry

life

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

We were born under a water sign

My spirit and your body

Inextricably combined

Like fire and air

An unlikely pair

For life… 

Only I was ever told the plan

Through the years I’d whisper

Hoping you would understand

Some things got through

The more that you knew

Of life…

You made me real

And I woke you up

You helped me feel

And I gave you love…

Halfway in when you lost your way

When darkness had descended

When you were in a hopeless place

You needed a friend

You looked here within

For life…

You made me real

And I woke you up

You helped me feel

And I gave you love…

For a time it was enough...

Now the final moments come

The long farewell, a sort of breaking up

One more breath and I’ll take flight 

Into forever, but it’s not goodbye

It’s just life...

worst of both worlds

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

It was the worst of both worlds

The worst of both worlds

Colliding, Fighting

The pair of us were paralyzed…

Inside, I’d had enough of my family

I cut that tree down, all the children were set free

Exposing the roots, secret truths once so cozy

Inside

Outside, our wedding day was approaching

The foundation split after years of devotion

Two lovers now strangers, the fear forced the anger

Outside

It was the worst of both worlds

The worst of both worlds

Colliding, Fighting

The pair of us were paralyzed…

Inside, you had some grief to attend to

You lost your sister then lost your best friend too

I just rocked you, hoping that I could soothe you

Inside

Outside

We raised a tent and some glasses

We spoke of forever in front of the masses

The honeymoon soon kicked the both of our asses

Outside

I had a dream, we were still standing

Before the vows had been broken

We had a love, we had understanding

But I guess we needed to break…

It was the worst of both worlds

The worst of both worlds

Colliding, Fighting

The pair of us were paralyzed…

hope like adrenaline

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

I don’t want a love that makes me feel this way

Misunderstood and alone with nothing to say

I’d rather just walk away

Made the decision to fork this road of us

Knowing the destination ain’t a shared one

Like we once thought it was

After years of idleness

And fears that wore me down

Where will I find the strength

To finally leave this house

I’ll use hope like adrenaline

To get me through these nights

When love’s a chameleon 

A location I can’t find

When my heaviness and depression 

Start to still my beating heart

I’ll use hope like adrenaline ’til my arrested heart

Beats in time

I met a new girl before I was prepared

She woke a part of me up I’d forgotten was there

I believe she cared

By the second time I saw her, something had changed

Easy smiles were gone, now her face was pained

What did I say?

She said she saw red flags

But she could not see me

Gotta stay open

No matter where this road leads

I’ll use hope like adrenaline

To get me through these nights

When love’s a chameleon 

A location I can’t find

When my heaviness and depression 

Start to still my beating heart

I’ll use hope like adrenaline ’til my arrested heart

Beats in time

begin again, again

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

It’s the closing of Summer

There’s a lingering heat

This town feels so strange without you

How I miss your kisses and your body…

It’s 755 miles

It’s an eleven hour drive

With just four days to make the most of

If I leave at dawn before long I’ll be at your side…

The curving road ahead reminds me

Of your silhouette in my bed

Can we begin again, again

Can we love and let go

Fail another time or two

Each time closer to the truth

Can we begin again, again (x2)

Harsh words had been spoken

Several months spent apart

Apologies and forgiveness

We made a plan to attempt a new kind of start

The setting sun frames your doorway

As you reach to welcome me in

Can we begin again, again

Can we love and let go

Fail another time or two

Each time closer to the truth

Can we begin again, again (x2)

Can we leave the past in the past

These days will go fast

And who knows they could be our last

That’s the kind of love that I need

It just keeps deepening

We can’t lose if we keep recovering…

Can we begin again, again

Can we love and let go

Fail another time or two

Or at least be willing to

Can we begin again, again

Can we love and let go

Fail another time or two

Each time closer to the truth

Can we begin again, again (x2)

one more time

Written by Jesse Correll

© 222 Blue Tunes (SESAC)

Two days now we’ve made no contact

Eighty-eight more to go

We both agreed this Summer’s one that

We’ll each have to go alone

Closed blinds by the swimming pool

The cold grill of a barbecue

I don’t want  to waste the season

I don’t want to move on

You go enjoy the ocean breeze and

I’ll just avoid the sun

Self-help books on audio

From a starter home back to a studio

Sign me up, I’m a puppet

I’m just hanging on your line

I’m a fool, but fuck it

I just want to see you one more time

One more time

My shrink calls this love addiction

It’s a verbal attack

Her description sounds familiar

How I lean in just as you pull back

Give me methadone from my telephone

The courage to change or leave alone

Sign me up, I’m a puppet

I’m just hanging on your line

I’m a fool, but fuck it

I’ll recover next time

One more hit, then I’ll quit

Life alone hurts my spirit

Your embrace was sublime

I just want to see you one more time

One more time

I don’t feel well, I shake, shake

a dull ache fills up my chest…

I’m looking for some relief, from this grief

and all my feelings unexpressed…

Sign me up, I’m a puppet

I’m just hanging on your line

I’m a fool, but mother fuck it

I tap the screen to dial

These withdrawals made me call

You ignore them one and all

You’re much stronger than I’m

I just want to see you one more time

One more time

Two more times

All the time…

I just want to see you…all the time…